Hai...fucking bored! Wake up so early..mum ask me to go buy breakfast to get change. Wth..can't u do it urself..so fucked up. Come back finish breakfast chiong hw. Thought can go out if i finish. Finally i chiong finish. Tok to mum..keep naggin at me. Going out so often. hai..ok fine..don't go out lor. Cb..u happpy..?

Thought could go to the class outing a while. Fucking hell..i wanna go lor. Cb..fuck that lar. Don't go out so often. no money. i go out everytime use my own money lor. Cb..now make me cannot buy wat i wanna buy. Fucker..bitch. Everytime compare me with bro. That's already the past lor. Wat u wannna..? Nowadays kids all want freedom lor.

I don't wanna expect much freedom from you. I jus need somemore. A bit more will do. I jus don't understand a single shit about you. You wan me to study hard..get good grades. This CA..i chiong my life over it. So hiong..so tough..wat i wanna do is to acheive good grades..to please you and me. And maybe also hope to get some rewards from that. to me, i felt that i did very very well in it. But u did'nt even say i did well but in fact say it was'nt good enough. HOW CAN U EXPECT SO MUCH FROM ME?I HAD TRIED MY BEST..!!! I DID ALL I CAN. AND YOU COME AND TOLD ME THAT I DID'NT DO VERY WELL-JUST AVERAGE..! I got so much As..first time in my sec sch. I was so delighted..and u put cold blanket over me. I was not happy bout it but fucking discouraged.

Other pple's mum like my friends...i think none of them can do so well as me! U heard that..but their mum still buy things for them as rewards..let them go out with friends. WAt bout you?! YOU YOU YOU?! I DID'NT EXPECT U TO GIVE ME REWARDS I JUS WAN SOME FREEDOM FROM MY HARD WORK. I thought my hard work had paid off. But i was jus dreaming. Again, after the test..u urge me to study again. I really could'nt take it. All my friends are out there having so much fucking fun and i'm down here fucking suffering..STUDY. Everytime when i go out..u will be fucking unhappy. Say i spend money. Ok fine..i am guilty about it. But i jus wanna do something to make my life happy. LIFE IS SHORT..DO WAT U WANNA DO. IF NOT ONE DAE IMAGINE I MET SOME FUCKING ACCIDENT..I'M DEAD. I WILL REGRET MY WHOLE CHILDHOOD FUCKING LIFE.

right iin my mind..rather can't help thinking about my fucked up life..i can't think of anything. I jus really fuck up too much..i could'nt stand it.

All my hardwork jus would'nt work. I REGRET...